Sunday, February 22, 2009


I went to a wedding yesterday with Tori. He didn't log on until the ceremony was over, but we arrived at the reception in time for the traditional newlyweds' first dance and all the subsequent activities. It was Rollem's wedding and all of the old gang was there. We didn't stay long; we left to explore a wine cellar and ended up talking about everything and nothing like we always do while we enjoyed a glass of very common red. Then we went to Zoundz to look for a whistle gesture and discovered it was really a wolf whistle! There were many, many natural and bird sounds so I will probably go back and pick up a few for my garden. And we had fun trying all the silly female gestures.

I was feeling pretty confident about how I had handled seeing all the friends who no longer come to my dances, so we decided to go to Allan's gig. I miss his music (it was always pretty good) and he is definitely entertaining. When we got there, Tori didn't want to dance on Salena's hud (probably being loyal to me) so we pair danced on the intan, changing dances as best I could with the limited variety. I was really feeling good about the fact that I could actually exist in the same area as Allan and not get upset. Then Allan did what Allan does - he dedicated a song to Tori and me! I am not sure what prompted it, but it really upset me that he would do something like that without even asking the "couple" involved! He just made the wrong assumption! And Allan made me uncomfortable so I told Tori I had to leave - that things had been fine up to that point, but I couldn't stay any longer. I thought I had forgiven Allan, but apparently I haven't, even though it has been nearly 4 months. Poor Tori had to deal with my upset and calm me down (which he did by making me laugh.) But I don't think I will be going to any of Allan's sets for a long time. He embarrassed me and I felt like a laughing stock!

Tori and I are friends; very, very good friends. There is no one I would rather spend time with or dance with, but we have spent so much time together over the last few months that everyone thinks we are a couple. And I guess we are, just not in the traditional bf/gf sense. I am not sure if this bothers me. Perhaps I just have a few regrets. There are twists and turns in any relationships and I didn't want to follow the usual progression. I have too much respect for Tori.

So what will today bring? I don't know and I don't care. I will just let (second) life happen...


Ariel Mornington said...

I'm sorry it turned out to be so uncomfortable for you. I know Allan didn't mean it in a spiteful or cruel manner, but he does have a tendancy to put people on the spot like that.
It happened with Gray and myself, and I too was embarrased. We aren't a "couple" in the traditional sense either, but we are more than just friends.. I still do get embarrased every time a song is dedicated to us..
I really am sorry about all of that Emy.

Gray said...

Enjoy Tori's friendship, companionship, what every you call it as much as you can while you can.

Close friends are hard to come by don't let it worry you what others may think. You and Tori have something most people in real or second life don't have.

Learn, love, be honest and live life.

Tori said...

I doubt that anyone was laughing at you of us, in fact I bet most people didn't even notice the dedication.

Our frienndship is special, I treasure you dearly, and you know I'm here for you. That it is not more ... So relationships don't last, but friendships endure.


Casandra Shilova said...

Cas kicks Allan for being the insensitive clod that he is.